Wednesday, December 10, 2008

They do it before you know it

I was in the kitchen cooking and I opened the refrigerator door to get the milk out. Ariyah knows I keep my fingernail polish in there so she ran over to the door. I did not think anything about it so I close the door and go on about my cooking. The next thing I knew I heard her screaming and standing beside was Ariyah with her hands out and as I look down I see her COVERED from chest down to her toes in HOT PINK polish! She had broken the bottle (that I did not know she had) and poured it out all over herself and then freaked because she could not get it off . There was glass from the bottle everywhere and polish all OVER my floor. I rushed to put her in the tub to wash her off but I had bought the kind that dries in 60 seconds Ugh!!!!! So, I called my mother and she brought me polish remover and we commenced to rubbing Ariyah down ! The house smelled TERRIBLE! We opened the windows and turned on the air. About that time Vance pulls up as we are just finishing cleaning up and he gags and he walks into the door. She was fine after a little TLC and she was back to her happy self! The excitement never ends here............. can not wait to see what she does next to give mommy a panic attack! ha

Monday, December 8, 2008

You never fall out of love

It was positive!!!!!! The one thing I had prayed for all my life and the one thing I feared would never happen for me. It was the best news we had ever received. A baby! Our first baby! Never did I imagine my happiness would turn to tragedy...... I remember going to doctor bleeding and they did an ultrasound to check my status and there it was ......the heartbeat. Such a strong one at that. Everything was great. It was the most beautiful thing I had ever laid my eyes upon. Weeks went by , as we planned and thanked God for such an awesome blessing. Then it happened, that terrible night that I started hurting and bleeding profusely..... we went to the ER......they told me it was probably just a UTI but I knew better in my heart. I held on to that sonogram picture and vance for dear life.....they rolled me back to do another ultrasound and there in the midst of all my fear......a straight line. No heartbeat. I could still see my baby......all curled up in a ball. All I could do was ask "Why God, why did you take my baby?" Nothing made sense, nothing else mattered, my heart was broken and my whole body was numb. I held onto vance and my parents as I tried to understand it all. The next day I had surgery and all of our friends and family were there to cry and hold us and encourage us. That night we went home and everyone came with us.........we have such incredible people in our lives. That day was eye opening for me. I saw how easily life is given and how quickly it is taken away. That has been 3 years ago and since then Jasmine and Ariyah....my beautiful little girls......have made my life so complete. But,My sweet little baby yoda, I love you so very much and I never stop thinking of you. I will see you again one day and until I do........GOD Speed!

Tubes in her ears???

Ariyah has been sick now for 5 months with URI's, sinusitis, cough, ear infections.....so after what seems like 500 rounds of antibitoics from Amoxicillen to Omnicef to Rocephin Injections....I took her to an ENT today. He said that her ears look great today but one more ear infection and he will do tubes. So now we wait.......... you never know what is the right thing to do. I just pray God keeps her close and takes care of her when I can not.